Archive for May, 2009
I remember the season. It was Halloween. I had a unique costume ready to wear to a party. He said I could possibly win a prize. Then, around the middle of October, something changed. I wasn’t sure what it was. I would see him now and then but he never called me and he seemed distant. He was still polite when we met and he would ask how I was doing, but the camaraderie wasn’t there anymore. I had no idea what had happened. One day, he acted a bit more friendly, so I sat down beside him in a public place. He jumped up and almost ran away. I followed him. I said, “I thought we were friends”. He replied, “What makes you think we’re not friends?’ Somehow that remark reassured me and I cheered up. A little while later, I saw him sitting in a cafe and I rushed to join him, not stopping to notice that he was seated by a woman. They were playing a board game. She said to him, “Let’s leave. Here comes your friend. She’s such an idiot I can’t stand to talk to her”. It was like I had been hit on the head with a plank. It wasn’t the insult. It was the fact that in that instant I knew why he had been acting distant. He and she were now a pair. I felt left out and unwelcome, especially when he continued to engage in sexy talk with her right in front of me. Later, he told me that he was buttering her up because she had promised to find him a job. I accepted his story. So we got back together. Later he admitted to me that he had been attracted to her and that he wanted to have her any way he could. I cried for days. It has taken me a long, long time to trust him again.
