Archive for May, 2009
Getting into a relationship is one of the best things that can happen but when a relationship breaks, it is really painful. It is worse when you really love the person in a very special way and yet that person does not want anything to do with you anymore. I was having a beautiful relationship with this girl for over five years. We had started living together after knowing each other for a year. We had the best of times together for four years. We had taken a conscious decision not to have any children. We wanted to stay in love with each other for ever.
One fine day she comes home and tells me that she is leaving. Just like that. No explanations, no reasons, not a word about what the problem was. I was totally shattered. I did not know how to react. It was like a bolt from the blue. All my entreaties to her to at least tell me what the problem was, failed to elicit a response. She packed her bags and moved out in an hour. I came to know later that she had rented an apartment cross the city and was staying alone there.
For a few days I tried to contact her but she would not take my calls. I met her friends and they too did not have any idea what was troubling her. For a month I was I a daze. I lost interest in work. I stopped eating properly. I had just stopped living. I was growing mad trying to decipher the reasons for her walking out just like that. It was becoming impossible to carry on like this. I had to do something. I then made a firm resolve not to think of her and get her out of my mind. I immersed myself deeply into my work and spent longer hours at work. I sold the apartment we had shared together and moved to a smaller apartment away from that locality. I made a conscious effort not to go to any place that we had frequented. It took me two years to get over her. To this day I do not know why she left me. That is the only thing that keeps gnawing at my heart. If only I knew. If it is another man I would accept it, but leaving without a reason is killing me. I am beginning to live with it now.
