Broken Heart Secrets

I was left at the alter, well 7 days before, when he decided he didn’t want to be married.  He took off to Florida and I had no clue.  I was crushed, embarrassed and my heart was broken.  Instead of dealing rationally, I immediately started cleaning up the mess.  I canceled all wedding arrangements and notified as many guest as possible, returned gifts, money, furniture and lied to people because I didn’t want to explain.  I acted as though everything was wonderful with my life.  I yearned for an explanation from him so I could explain it to myself, but it never came.  I became self destructive to relieve the pain of being abandoned with no explaination.  I did realize after seeing the lifestyle my ex now leads that he did both of us a favor.  After 21 years we still haven’t discussed the situation, but that’s okay, I’m at peace.  What reduced my pain was continuing to live my life and time.  I’m happily married 20 years, occasionally think about the past and at least I had one, but realize a future is so much better.  I eventually sought counseling for other issues, bringing some understanding to my past.